i heard from someone that people fate changes every 5 years..
hmm.. dunno should i be happy or sad.. sad because many years back, a person told me my life will end at 30+.. scary right?! 31 and 39 is also consider as 30+ wad.. i also dunno which year.. hard to predict also... however, i should be happy coz this happens many years ago so by right my fate have already been changed! izzit that wonderful?!

BUT!!!

i dun rem doing any good deeds that can make my fate change better leh.. so how!! must do good deeds from now on liao lor!! haha...

SO!!!

i want to say SORRY to those people that i once offended! dunno why but i always offend ppl.. either i am too straight forward or that person deserve it.. wahahhaa... so my sorry are only meant for those people that seriously deserve this sorry! LOL..
i noe my mouth is too rotten bad le lah.. but i seriously wanted to change but i need time! and also this is my only leisure leh.. so must take longer time to change also... haha...

to be honest, no choice also.. coz i can only spot bad things.. i always miss out the good things.. sad right!! this is already a punishment to me le! =(

example time..bad things...there is this auntie wearing dull colour checkers shirt... me and guili took the mrt and the moment i step into the train, the first thing i spot is a small hole in one of the square of the checkers from the auntie shirt lor.. haha... i cant rem if its guili or someone else beside me la.. lol... alot of times like that le.. people nv zip or wat, i can easily spot sia.. haha..
good things... this time confirm is with guili.. haha.. we were walking to the cck interchange.. at the same time, my sister and some relatives were walking towards us.. i din notice till they tap me on my shoulder then i response to them.. haha... they(laughing) told me that from far they already start waving and shouting my name to me already but i nv even see them! i pro right!! so many people of the faces that i noe but i din manage to see them! haha.. the most funny thing is, b4 they saw me, they saw my brother and the same thing happen to them.. haha... my brother and i sure cock eye sia..
wat to do.. i also dun wish to have this kind of "talent"!! i prefer to spot good things than bad sia.. then can see handsome guy more often!! haha.. always spot people with some unusual stuff in them sia... sad right!! i also dun wan to be this way!!

oh ya!! sometimes i hear comment of me being too proud or "dao" coz i nv say hello to them or wat.. i not purposely de!! coz i seriously nv nv see u although my eye contact is there!! this one cannot change coz i also dunno how to change sia.. ppl! sorry if i nv say hello to u or wat.. coz i dun mean it at all!!

ps: i was disappointed with a fren.. i cant tell when she is true or fake towards me but i dun wan to lose a frenship so easily.. i already lost one 2 years back also due to some miscommunication too.. i dun wan this to happen now but i seriously hope that she noes its her.. i am not trying to be nasty or wat but this feeling came after some accumulation.. it dun occurs suddenly! i am not trying to bad-mouth her but i seriously think that she assume i am a "anything" and dumb person that cant interpret wat she says.. i dunno if i am the one thinking too much but sometimes, her words just hurt me directly that i can nv forget.. although she thinks that she is "joking".. sometimes a woman 6th sense is very accurate! i can feel that she is not joking at all when she said that.. thats y i feel very hurt.. but i din express out.. yes! i can tell a person directly that i dun like her or i dun even contact her at all coz they are just a nobody to me.. but this case, i once treated her as my good fren so its harder to tell her how i feel.. i want to find a chance to tell her how i feel in a peaceful manner.. and both parties dun get hurt.. i noe its difficult not to be hurt at all but i still hope that we can still be frens after that..when i get too emotionally involve, i cant talk well and i scared will worsen... i need courage